acceptance

People are like stained glass windows: they sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light within.

- Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

Most times, I am a bit much for people.  I am very loud in my looks and also my speech.  I say words I shouldn't but I can't help myself.  Lately, acceptance of myself has been a pretty big deal.  I normally don't care and couldn't care less what people think of me but I've been giving it a lot of thought lately.  I feel like Christian and other children definitely learn by example and for me to teach something as important as self acceptance, I need to be an incredible example of it.  I will throw any looks aside.  I won't care what people say.  I will hold my head high and walk proudly of who I am, faults and all.  I am an amazing person and everyone should know it! LOL!!  (maybe that was a bit much.)

I just want Christian to believe he is the light and the change he wants to see in the world.  He is the deciding factor in his happiness.  My wish is that every parent instills this in their child.  Every child at any age deserves to hear from their parent that they are loved and that their parents accept them for who they are and that they are proud of them.

that year went so fast!

May 23rd, 2010..this is what I was doing. I hated taking the maternity pictures. I felt incredibly awkward and huge. Most of the time was spent yelling at Chris and making smart remarks. Fast forward to Christian's first birthday and I am beyond grateful that these were taken. Christian had an amazing birthday celebration extravaganza! The first party consisted of family and a few friends at our their home. There was amazing food, a wonderful cake (that was made by the same lady who made our wedding cake), pinata and presents of course! Christian had so much fun and loved all of his presents. His second party was at a place that Chris found called Makutu's Island. It was wonderful! I really loved it. Chris picked the location since he wasn't going to be home for the party like we had originally hoped. Christian's friends and family attended and he loved trying pizza. His favorite was trying fruit punch. He's never had a super sweet drink before and I figured since it was his birthday I would go ahead and allow it.

My little zombie amazes me beyond words. He will point to his toes and say toes. He claps when he falls and cheers at soccer games and says GOAL!. He's willing to share (most times). He loves to dance. Toy Story 3 is the most amazing movie he has ever seen. Bananas are his favorite food ever. He gives the best hugs I have ever received. He plays so gently with his kitten.

I can't wait for him to keep growing and learning more. He makes me such a better person and I love him so much for that. I can't wait for his Daddy to see what an awesome little guy he is!